I'm sick of the things that you do behind my back.
I'm sick of the promises that you break.
I'm sick of finding out things.
I'm sick of losing my trusts for you.
I'm sick of trying to love you more, so that you can love me more.
I'm sick of forgiving you just cause you love me.

You know, I'm so sick of these, I dont know when will I can't take all this anymore.

I'm tired.

How can you people say I'm not working hard enough when I'm already trying my best?!

It's my face. Do you think I don't want it to be better?! Hey, the things are in MY FREAKING FACE. Not yours. If you think it is in serious trouble, how do you think I feel? I'll tell you dumb ass. I feel like SHIT. I feel really UGLY. I look into the mirror very day and night, and ask myself, when will I be pretty, be beautiful?

Some of you says it's from stress. I didn't understand at first. I believe I'm coping quite well with my studies and I not ultra stressed up by it. Now I freaking understand where the stress comes from. Oh well, from my own freaking face and you people who said I'm not taking care of my face well. OH FUCK OFF. you don't know how much effort I've put into it.

I spent so much money. MY MONEY. not my parents'.

I've put so much time, money and hope in this. Please don't take my only hope away from me. I beg you.

I don't mind you telling me that my condition is not improving or whatsoever, but please don't say I'm not working hard enough. Please.